hurm when i will be happy like everyone else ? i need to get out from ... ! i dun want to say from "who" . my heart can easily broken if anyone hurt me yes i'm sensitive . i need a bit freedom or taste the world oh please let me do what i want && please shut your mouth also stop membebel about fucking shit story about me to other ppl .
did you jelezing with me ? i know who i am , i know what i do , i scream in my heart for everyday seriously i want to scream as loud but it's so hard i tried but i can't . oh please bitch *opss sorry agak kasar* please understand me , i'm not breaking down now oke ?
yes , i can keep everything secret in my heart but only GOD knows what i feel now . but how long i should be like this ? no one can understand me even my family . but ...
//I LOVE THEM//
what should i do to be a good person to everyone ?
why i did it idk , i think i felt obligated to and it was expected of me to do
it . ever since i said "I DO" i have hated myself everyday . hmmm
yes , i'm here with my own life
i'm dying also confused
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chop ! chop !
i've one story / i was wrote
mybe 3 years ago
read read ;)
TITTLE ; MY BEST FRIEND
chop ! chop !
i've one story / i was wrote
mybe 3 years ago
read read ;)
TITTLE ; MY BEST FRIEND
she tossed her head back as she bellowed out a laugh like a wild woman . this friend of mine was uninhibited and she meant the world to me . only she kept me feeling alive these days .
"dear , ;) you really need to learn how to let your hair down and to set yourself free " hazel purred as she flipped her long , fiery hair over her shoulder . "look at you! here you are , a free woman at last , yet inside you are still locked up "
hazel was the one friend i had who had been with me from the beginning . she was there when i cried from fear . she held my hand as i waited in the doctor's room to have my broken arm placed in a cast. she fed me and kept my spirits alive during the days when he disappeared and abandoned me with nothing to my name.
she was the only friend who stood by me , no matter what , and without preaching , told me that i did not have to live like i did , that there were other options , and she waited , without judgment , for me to make the decision that was bound to save my own life .
he hated hazel . it was all her fault that our marriage wasn't surviving . he hated the way that she was so independent and alive . it was a threat to all that he was trying to instill in me . how could i be the quiet , simple and obedient wife he desired and beat to create if hazel was there to show me i didn't have to be that way ? she was the only thing i ever defied him over and i think i got the courage for that from her love .
"aah ! shoot hazel," i grinned at her . "give me time, girlie! look at all i have managed to get done this week alone . you want a bloody miracle out of me ?"
"ooh balderdash on the give you time bull crap ! lets see .... what have you done ?" hazel started counting on her finely manicured fingers . ;P
"one, you packed everything you had and walked out the door . hallelujah ! At last !!!!! two, you actually went to the court house and filed paperwork to start divorce proceedings . three, you started counseling .... what makes you think i don't already see a miracle standing in front of me ?"
i looked at her standing there , a woman so vital that it made my heart ache to see her. i never had much in my life to be grateful for but by God , hazel was at the top of my list .
"dear , ;) you really need to learn how to let your hair down and to set yourself free " hazel purred as she flipped her long , fiery hair over her shoulder . "look at you! here you are , a free woman at last , yet inside you are still locked up "
hazel was the one friend i had who had been with me from the beginning . she was there when i cried from fear . she held my hand as i waited in the doctor's room to have my broken arm placed in a cast. she fed me and kept my spirits alive during the days when he disappeared and abandoned me with nothing to my name.
she was the only friend who stood by me , no matter what , and without preaching , told me that i did not have to live like i did , that there were other options , and she waited , without judgment , for me to make the decision that was bound to save my own life .
he hated hazel . it was all her fault that our marriage wasn't surviving . he hated the way that she was so independent and alive . it was a threat to all that he was trying to instill in me . how could i be the quiet , simple and obedient wife he desired and beat to create if hazel was there to show me i didn't have to be that way ? she was the only thing i ever defied him over and i think i got the courage for that from her love .
"aah ! shoot hazel," i grinned at her . "give me time, girlie! look at all i have managed to get done this week alone . you want a bloody miracle out of me ?"
"ooh balderdash on the give you time bull crap ! lets see .... what have you done ?" hazel started counting on her finely manicured fingers . ;P
"one, you packed everything you had and walked out the door . hallelujah ! At last !!!!! two, you actually went to the court house and filed paperwork to start divorce proceedings . three, you started counseling .... what makes you think i don't already see a miracle standing in front of me ?"
i looked at her standing there , a woman so vital that it made my heart ache to see her. i never had much in my life to be grateful for but by God , hazel was at the top of my list .
tht all ;)
thanks for the read
really appreciate it
till we meet again
miss you .
~LALALALA~
thanks for the read
really appreciate it
till we meet again
miss you .
~LALALALA~
